It has been two years since the fall. Two years- really, has it been two years since that great fall, a fall that changed everything, that changed life as I knew it!! But to me the memories still seem afresh in my mind as a morning looks awashed by dew drops. The pain, the hurt, the humiliation, the struggle is even more persistent to the extent of being palpable. We are rising, falling and rising again. Sometimes it all seems to be a dream and sometimes way too real. Does it gets any worse than this, my mind shouts out but no one can hear, sometimes not even me. When this battle of reality gets too uphill to get through, my heart screams insanely but still no one hears!! Almost picture perfect memories are scattered all around and I am trying too hard to pick them up, put them together again and bring them back to reality again. "Why were they taken away from me??" I yell out in a painful howl. "Why?" I groan again, look up and see just emptiness-clear, black emptiness!!
Thoughts are running in my mind- a million per second, they are pulling me down, tied around my neck like a heavy stone-pulling me in the dark, deep dungeons of lifelessness. I am grasping for breath,desperately trying to stay afloat but the weight of the struggle, the pull of the nonsensical thoughts is trying to suck the life out of me. I cannot see, darkness is setting in, the mass of light is now just a flicker. "Am i this far, that light is nothing but just a glimmer getting smaller and smaller." I see the distance and the very thought of the struggle of trying to swim back out of this sea of darkness wears me down and I give up. The sea roars with the deafening evil laughter of the depression monster and I- scared and lifeless let those waves of darkness engulf me. Since the Fall I have swam seas of darkness and yet the light just seems to be getting farther and farther away!!
Thoughts are running in my mind- a million per second, they are pulling me down, tied around my neck like a heavy stone-pulling me in the dark, deep dungeons of lifelessness. I am grasping for breath,desperately trying to stay afloat but the weight of the struggle, the pull of the nonsensical thoughts is trying to suck the life out of me. I cannot see, darkness is setting in, the mass of light is now just a flicker. "Am i this far, that light is nothing but just a glimmer getting smaller and smaller." I see the distance and the very thought of the struggle of trying to swim back out of this sea of darkness wears me down and I give up. The sea roars with the deafening evil laughter of the depression monster and I- scared and lifeless let those waves of darkness engulf me. Since the Fall I have swam seas of darkness and yet the light just seems to be getting farther and farther away!!
